On My Mind

missing...me?

2011-03-21T02:14:00.003+13:00

Salam..

I'm becoming such a boring person..

i get tired so easily..

whenever it's weekend all i want to do is lying around on my bed..doing absolutely nothing..

which i hate..

i wanted the old me..

going out on weekends..

with friends..

with family..

with my dearest..

but now..

it's like my job has sucked my energy out of me..

i've been so overloaded with work during weekdays..

ever since my supervisor resigned..

i have to step in her shoe..

trying to do her job + continue with my job..

i feel sorry for myself..

told my dear i wanted to be a housewife lah..

he tersedak..

HAHA..

sorry dear,was joking..

nevertheless,i really miss my life...

lil bit cheesiee

2010-12-14T03:02:00.006+13:00

yesterday nite was a total cheesie day..ok, night.. dinner was..cheesi-ful!

it was my first time eating at a real italian restaurant..ITALIANIES, where food where made to share..believe me, their tagline was “So Much, So Good, So Share"..pretty much explains it all,don't u think? HOWEVER the portions for last nite for me, was actually pretty normal..i actually thought it's going to be sooo big,i was really afraid to order for dessert..but we did go to heaven..:D lets get to that later..

i ate classic carbonara (lunch size) which was normal fettucine with parmesan cream sause with slices of meat and mushroom..it's tasty enough for my liking so i gave it a B+..the sauce was very thick but lack of some more flavour i think..nonetheless,it was one of the best carbonara i've ever tasted!!

Next up is beef lasagna..i've only tasted a piece of it so not much to comment on..but the mozarella top, was very lovely..the crispiness and stickiness together creates a mouthful dish.nyumm..totally delish..but the lasagna itself was a bit dry for me..i crave for creamy lasagna and that dish was not enough for me..too bad..

last but not least.

the heavenly NY strawberry cheesecake..the best cake ever!the texture of the cake is so fine, i taste cheeseeee all over my mouth..i didnt taste no eggs,no cream,no milk whatsoever..just cheese..and together with the strawberry sauces, nothing beats this cake..seriously u have to go have a try..:)) and it looks just like the pic above..hee..i didn't manage to take any photos since we're so hungry and excited to see our food ;p A++

that was one of my memorable dinner ever..good food,good companion..
what else can you ask for?..

Watching her...

2010-09-16T02:24:00.004+12:00

going away vs watching loved ones go..

i've felt both..

both are totally different..

going away, i'm all excited, happy and full of nervous-ness..

but watching my sis go beyond that gate..

can't help but feeling so proud of her..

so happy for her..

but at one point i feel like holding onto her, not letting go..

even though i know she's going to be fine..

she's my baby sister..

i'm not going to be near..

to protect her..

to watch her grow..

to support her..

to hold her close..

hopefully for less than a year

it hurts..

now i know how mommy n daddy feel like..

p/s to ieda,if you ever read this, don't cry k..

true love??

2010-09-06T02:53:00.002+12:00

how do you know when it's your true love?

it's been bothering me,seriously..with few past relationships just blown into outer space to some unknown places,deeply buried under boxes of painful memories.it's been years since i experienced L-O-V-E. now i can't even recognize true love, or maybe i just stopped believing long time ago..either way, i'm deeply confused..

i've imagine my future..

how would i want them to be..BUT...

it's true after all, life is destined for us..it's supposed to NOT go as planned..

y am i suddenly talking about this?

cuz i just watched two crappy love movies today while being sick and lonely at home..

Valentine's day

When in Rome

it's crappy but it kept me thinking for a while..

even while watching planet 51 which is even crappier..ugh..

ok back to topic, well technically love is supposed to make you go ga-ga, feeling romantic all of sudden over..well maybe a stranger..

if in movies, you'll get to know them, had a great time,then u make out..bla3..there goes true love for ya..

but in reality, not so much..especially being a muslim ofcourse..

it still bothers me that i can't have any answers unless i find that out myself..

and i couldn't find that out myself when i'm so busy with work..

flirting here and there is not a good solution..

being fanatical about handsome guys is not the solution..

being so technical about how a hubby should be is ALSO, not a good solution..

so..what's the perfect solution to love then?

alright,that's just something to ponder anyway..

to me, the simplest answer i can find right now is,

if you don't go seeking for love, it'll come to you in a naturally pleasant way..

well, that's me and my so called philosophy..lol

good night folks! i'll leave you thinking about it..:)

KRU?

2010-08-20T23:00:00.003+12:00

ok, crazy..

i don't know whether to apply or not..

someone ask me to apply for a spot in KRU Records management..Finance dept laa..hehe

just now,he gave me his friend's email.his friends works as finance manager or smthg...he seems persistent that i apply for it..

adoiii y suddenly meet this guy..

now headache..

cam best je..gaji byk..tp......................

knp bkn company lain????

Thank you,Arigato,kamsahamnida(?)

2010-08-20T02:52:00.003+12:00

salam 9th ramadhan~!

just here to share this..

WHAT TIME IS IT???

..........................................2PM!!!!!

"THANK YOU"

btw,i'm having a great time guy hunting! lol..joking only larr..hehe..

......andddd..sumone offered me a job at KRU Records Management!!!! ngahahaha..believe me onot?? GILA i tell you..GILAAA!!! XDDD

It's me again

2010-08-18T01:54:00.004+12:00

Salam Ramadhan~~~

Hey.

It's been a while huh..

just trying hard to keep my blog alive right now..hehe..

so so lazy to post EVERYtime i have things to be remembered about..LOL

to keep a decent memory while it's still in me..here a recap for what's going on in my life (this is solely for my keep anyway,i know no one reads my blog) ;p

this is in any way NOT in a timely order cuz i'll just write whatever POPs into my head right now.

1. It's ramadhan..Alhamdulillah..my resolution for this year is to rekindle my relationship with Quran..since i came back here from Auckland,our relationship had been..um..somewhat loose..so i pledge to read Quran or listen to Quran whenever i can..Yosh!

2. My Sis's departure to U.K is very near..it's almost confirmed..13th SEPT 2010..i'm so proud of her! she had been waiting for so long!! i know i'm gonna miss her sooooooo much!!!!!!!! we have been hanging out whenever she comes here to KL and i really appreciate those times.it's very short, but hey it's precious. Since she's an active blogger..i'll try to keep my blog alive as much as i can to keep in touch with her..hey..blogging is not bad..it's just NOT my thing..haha.

3. AKANISHI JIN's departure from KAT-TUN. it's not been confirmed but this REAPED and TORNED my heart to pieces, really..i still can't listen to KAT-TUN's songs without tears at the corner of my eyes. i know i'm being dramatic as it's irrelevant to real life but you don't know how much i LOVE them. i don't worship them but i love them. i know i'll still be supporting both sides like i did for 2PM but 2PM's and KAT-TUN's case is somewhat different..KAT-TUN was like my savior from sadness..it's crazy,really but they helped me go through my post-breakup depression phase really well with their personalities,song,fans..they're just the best..i still have no ideas of how it's gonna be when it's confirmed..sigh..

4. My boss said to me once.."we're planning to promote you to executive position"

i was like.."really?"....

.."yeah,so DON'T GO FIND ANOTHER JOB OK? DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT..haha"

..."um...yeahh haha..alright boss..thank you so much..when it is going to be?"..

.."if you maintain your performance,maybe it's going to be around sept? give us another 2 months to make it possible alright.."

..."ohh yeah boss, great! Thank you so much!"

.."alright you may continue your work,i have works to do as well..haha"

..."haha,ok2 thanks boss"...............

my head went blank and a smile widening across my face..:))

then it faded..OMG..DILEMA! another job with better pay or a permanent position???

then after weeks of torturing my heads..

i've decided..i'll stay for a while to increase my market demand..

good decision??bad decision?? hurmmmm..

5. August..nothing much going on..except i'm going for a guy hunting! LOL it sounds sexist but i think i finally NEED a man in my life!! HAHA..after almost 2 years being single and happy i started to worry about my lonely life..i have wonderful friends but none are more than just being friends. Those that i can share things with, and manja2 with..hehe..i remember for this 2 years, i've been running away from men..LOL..they're always ended up feeling rejected without telling how they felt about me..always there's a wall..a huge wall..i'll keep remember myself to still keep those walls still but make it thinner? haha..

for those who are interested my criteria are very simple:

you must maintain a decent religious life, have a dependable future, non-smoker, loyal, responsible, respectful, not a sexist, and have a good sense of humours..

...........but they are surprisingly hard to find..T.T

alrighty then..going to sleep..till next time..mata ne! oyasuminasai!

btw before i forget..

a shout-out to a dear friend..

MURNI I MISS YOUUU!!!!! ^_^

Kizuna

2010-06-25T01:37:00.006+12:00

When the brand new you decided to follow the determination deep inside your heart,
I, unaware of anything, did not know to stay by your side

Only when I lost sight of you did I realized, far too late
Somewhere distant in my memory, I have let go of your hand

Even if we are separated, the dawn comes carrying light
I let my tears melt away, until my feelings are conveyed
I used to live my life in a rush, thinking that everything was for your sake
Even if we come to live on two different sides of the world, hold on to this eternal bond between us

If only I could turn the hands of time back to the sunset that day, back to that room,
to the moment when I could stop the words that fell from our lips

My heart remembered the day when you set out on your journey
to a place where I can't reach, and I come to bid you farewell

Even if we forget, somewhere along the road, the warmth of having met and fell in love with each other still exists
When we have traveled far and wide, there will come moments when we suddenly encounter those traces
The key to hope lies at the end of darkness,
so I simply place my trust in tomorrow

I keep painting my memory afresh with weaknesses, strengths, and scenery that I see

Even if we are separated, the dawn comes carrying light
I let my tears melt away, until my feelings are conveyed
I used to live my life in a rush, thinking that everything was for your sake
Even if we come to live on two different sides of the world, hold on to this eternal bond between us

I simply place my trust in tomorrow - FARAWAY (KAT-TUN)

dont you just feel helpless reading this lyrics?

i know i do..cuz i know just how that feels..

i have friends so far away and i've separated from the ones i trusted the most..

i even feel it for my sweet akame..sigh.miss them.

jin went to pursue his dream in LA while kame tours around Asia..

but their kizuna will be eternal..kanjite..

don't you just miss their smiles? i know i do..i love how kame looks at jinjin.

ano kizuna..will never break..

ok,about kizuna..

i'm so glad that i have a few friends (yes, only a few!) that i really feel really connected with..

even though we don't talk often, everyday i'll just miss them..i wish i can just meet them all at once but fml they don't really know each other and so damn busy.. they came into my life in different phases..school phase, fangirling phase, growing up phase..each and everyone of them deserve a gold star.they help me go through the edges of my life easier..i wish that i'll find more friends like them.. I LOVE THEM!!!!

another story, i hate my under eye bags!! dammit!!i look sleepy wth.

see what i mean? kacau lah! it cud be a cute pix. lol xcuse myself..but seriously!!!

tell me how to get rid of it!

change

2010-05-03T02:08:00.002+12:00

i have a feeling my life is changing..
and i think it is a good change..
at the start of my days as a trainee..
it's been a nightmare..
but now it's getting better..

i'm now just focusing on learning things, people, and the corporate world..

ok now,just got back from ipoh..
just a normal weekend, going to mrsm ph..cah's so homesick like me..hihi..
today..ate with family at nasi lemak pusing..niceee..really nice..
then at noon,when straight back to kl since baba's going to sibu..

so tomorrow..yep another day at work..
stockcounting,updating reports..etc..

ok fine i'll shut up..
c yaa~^_^

April..

2010-04-26T01:22:00.005+12:00

assalamualaikummmmmmmm~~

long time no see....ade ke org bca blog aku nih? hahaha..
i don't care if anyone's reading or not..
yup,they are mostly boring, mundane stuff i wrote..
and i write occasionally only..
when i feel like too..
yeah2 i know i did said i will write almost everyday..
but i just couldn't keep writing..
i'm just not a writer i guess..xD

alright..tonite i feel like writing stuff about my month..
this whole month..yes..
APRIL..

this month, i started my first job with touch n go sdn bhd..as a YES trainee..it stands for Young Executive Scheme where it trains fresh graduates like me into becoming an executive without starting from below..and yes.. it is more brutal i can say..
like for example if u start from below or a lower permanent post (with little money) u won't be getting so much work..
but for us YES trainee..we're so occupied with work from the very beginning..
i'm kind off shocked in the first week to be honest..
i'm not used to be in this situation..NOT being with your peers in your 1st day at a new place really sucks..i honestly don't know how to handle that..i didn't really mingle with older pple before..so i kept a distance which makes me very uncomfortable..yes i did made gestures, first move to a conversation but mostly it'll ended with a long pause and smile..and sometimes no smile at all..hurmm..what can i say..i'm not good at handling ppl that i just meet..it's just hard for me..i'll try working on that..
that's my first day or week..trying to get connected with ppl i'm working with..it's getting better now thankfully..but because of my busy work..it's not an easy thing to do..i want to keep showing how hardworking i am and at the same time having a good and easy conversation with everyone in the company..i'm still trying though..i still don't know many ppl..

within this month though..everything usually turns out the same..
same old mundane things..

work..
eat..
sleep..
occasional exercise..
watching tv..
surfing the net..
listening to music..

everyday i couldn't help but thinking what a boring life i have now..
i'm getting more boring each day..not that cheerful as i was in auckland or at home..
i don't blame it on my housemates..but yeah it's hard to be fun when everyone's at home tired and just wanna have quiet time..even if i wanna go out,i can't since i don't have car..and no one to go out with..most of my close friends are still studying..and they're busy studying for exam..and those who are working, too tired to even go out..sigh..

yesterday, i went out alone..to midvalley..watching movie alone,shopping alone..haha..like the times i was in auckland..but it's just not the same..as usual, i sat alone watching ppl..and it felt uncomfortable..even in my own home (Malaysia)..and i don't know why..maybe because everybody's the same as me? hurmm..

everyday i'll miss home even more..i'll miss auckland even more..my friends..my old life..
i know i should be enjoying a new work,new experience..but i don't know why is it so hard for me to do that..

i need something..some sparks in my life..
i haven't found that yet..
i wish i'll find it soon..
i hate living like this..

sigh..

p/s: pls don't think of this as i'm so terribly depressed with my life..no i'm not..i'm living a positive life everyday..thing just haven't work out for me yet..

p/s no 2: just to keep a record..in other weekends, i went to SPA exam which i didn't manage to complete seksyen A because of some idiot guy showing the wrong room..and the next weekend i went to attend my cousin's engagement..where i realized i didn't want an engagement ceremony..just the ring..so that the ceremony money (from the hantaran,kenduri bla3) can be saved and we'll spend it during the honeymoon..isn't that genius?? if i ever get married lah..haha..

NEW

2010-04-05T01:59:00.002+12:00

Everything's so new to me right now..

new house..
new house mates..
new job..
new place..
new environment..

I guess i'm here to start my new life..
i know i won't be a smooth sailing for here..
but i'm here for another wild ride! :D :D :D

Hopefully everything's okay tomorrow..:D

Music Bank

2010-03-13T03:12:00.004+13:00

wow since when plans don't turned out the way they're supposed to be huh?
when i seriously plan, and really commit to it..that's the time when ppl turn their back on me?
blahhh..nvm!!

on the sunny side,
KARA won today's music bank k-chart! woo hooooo!! love love love Lupin!

but the highlights of the night were Epik High and U-kiss..they seriously rock man!!!

here's a few of my fav perf tonight..

and ofcourse! ladies winner!

Rembau

2010-02-18T03:06:00.002+13:00

salam..

i'm in rembau now. my beloved kampung~~
suka2. ^^
tp agak boring ah..i really don't know what to do since there's nothing interesting to do here..
the kids are asleep already..bored to death seriously..
mummy's marking her test..baba upstairs tktau buat apa..
akmal's bored too..lol poor thing..forced to come here..XD
aisyah, surprisingly..is asleep..so early..

i wanna play with the cat..but arggghh i'm allergic to cats!!
stupid allergy!!
once i approach and hold the cat,

AHCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

BENGONG BTOL!!

my dream of owning a cat crash just like that..
we used to have cats as pets..but my last cat just disappear suddenly..huhu..
then after those years whenever i approach cats i must be sneezing,inflammation, icchiness, redness..blaa3..
so yeahh i'm allergic..damn my weird immunisation! huhu..
I FREAKING LOVE CAT!

TT_________________TT

it's ok lah..i'll find a way to build up my immunity towards cats again..keke..

Funny 2PM ranking

2010-01-13T13:57:00.003+13:00

i need to get on with editing my resume..>.<>

Here..bangun2 dh lulzy! haha

2pm saranghae!

Random again

2009-12-02T08:46:00.002+13:00

morning y'all~

bgun awal hari ni..wanna go for a walk..or run..

determined to lose the extra weight bfore going back to malaysia..

wish me luck!!

btw..junsu's sooo hot in this pic!

ok that is all..

jaa~

boring~

2009-11-29T18:57:00.002+13:00

heya~ ;)

i'm watching joey..quite boring~~

i don't know what to do anymore..

i've watchd movie,walk around, pilates, watch tv, cook, eat, bake, bla3..

still nothing interesting to do....

any idea??

Salam Aidil Adha

2009-11-27T22:18:00.004+13:00

i want to abuse my gifs again~~haha..

today's hari raya aidiladha in malaysia..i'll celebrate it tomorrow..

ahh..i wanna go home and hug everybody like crazy!

i miss them sfm!

rite now..don't feel like raya at all..

feel like eating dried mango..haha.

hahaha..

ok2 enough craps..lalala~~

today..i went to the city again..
but just to meet up with su..she's goin back tomorrow~ ahhh..so jealous!!!!
(hehe finally i can use a jinjin gifs..keke)

it was pretty fun..shopping,gossiping,eating like crazy..haha..i'm gonna miss her..i wish i have another year...........

NOT!!
haha..i would never want to study here again! haha..

but yeah..i'm seriously gonna miss her..i'm sure we're not gonna see each other often in malaysia..we live so far away..huhu..

sigh..
hopefully tomorrow's raya gonna cheer me up..i haven't seen the albany seniors for like a year now i think..i miss their children..i love playing with children~~

i wish i'll have children of my own..
3............or 4 of them..
one little girl..or two..no more..hihi..
ahh..but i don't want to get marry yet..
not until i get to see my beloved jinjin..~~and make him fall for me!~~ kekeke

ok2 jin don't get mad..ok..i know u're only for ame..
so my hubby will be leadja..keke..

ahh i miss my jay boo~~

KONBANWAAAAAA~~~~

2009-11-26T17:59:00.003+13:00

anyeonggg~~*fail bows* keke

now kt albany~ been enjoying my stay here..
but ahhhhh nak balik sekarang!!!!
sigh..another raya without my gorgeous family..

huhu..sedihhh~~~T___T hopefully i wont cry like 1:59PM on saturday .. i'm feeling pretty sad and down already..seriously cannot stand another raya here..seb baik raya haji je..klau tak..
i think i'm gonna stay in my room all day that day..
huhu...

ok GOOD NEWS!!

1 - i got A- for both finances paper!!
ALHAMDULILLAH!! it's totally not expected at all! for 362, i think it's the 2nd hardest paper this sem..but i did think i did pretty well during exam..but for 351..though i don't think it's that hard throughout the sem but i think i did the worst in final..it was sooo hard..and i cried so much after that..it's been so long after i cried for a paper like that..i think the last time was chemistry form 4..but seriously alhamdulillah i actually get A- for it..i guess the assignment and test helps a lot..and in fact it's a calculation paper helps even more..i just did all without knowing it's correct or not..but finally it came out alright..i seriously can't thank Allah enough for answering my prayer for that paper..Syukur Ya Allah..Terima kasih ya Allah!!! <3

2 - guess what!!

2PM WON ARTIST OF THE YEAR!!!!!!

it was so epic!!! they mentioned jay..

it was a really touching moment..and i teared!!! haha..
really proud of them..they achieved a lot in just a year and a few months..the hardship they went through..so worth it..lets hope jay comes back fast..enough changing tyres and fixing car baby! you worth more than that! hope u know that jay! everyone's waiting for your return..just come back already! hehe..i love you no matter what..<3 jinjin~don't be jaelous kay..i love you more..true fact! hihi..<33

ok i think i ranted too much..i'll be going now..ahhhh so hungry..maghrib pls come fast!!
forgive me for behaving like a child..it's my first time b'buka pkul 8.20PM!!! argghh..haha..

ok i'll leave you with my new fav song rite now..
After School - When i Fall

enjoy~~!!

i'll be going now..bye bicycle~~

oopsie..hihi..

JayTaec

2009-10-29T07:55:00.003+13:00

just..i miss this guy

and him

together..

rite, taec?

yes...........

i need jay to,hun!

THE ARRIVALS

2009-10-12T22:02:00.000+13:00

watched THE ARRIVALS..

what should i do now??

omoo!

:o

malasssssss

2009-09-30T20:41:00.001+13:00

ahhhhh rasa malas nk buat assignmenttttttttttt!!!!

sape nk tolong i bg seribu..haha..

a messed up daysigh

2009-09-27T15:02:00.004+13:00

ahhhhhhh~~~~~

i'm feeling kinda messed up..

i miss mummy~
i miss daddy~
i miss jin~
i miss kat-tun~
i miss jay~
i miss 2pm~
i miss wild bunny~
i miss 1st season of CKT~
i miss my CR friends~

i want to eat dried mango~
i want to eat chocolate~
i want to sleep more~
i want to go shopping~
i want to eat less~

i don't want to do research~
i don't want to calculate options~
i don't want to do the presentation~
i don't want to apply for jobs yet~

ahhhhhh~~~~~~~

seriously~~

messed up! stressed out!!!

i need my daily dosage of KAT-TUN / 2PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jin,be good will ya..
Kat-tun, please release a new song..
Jay, just come back please..
6pm,don't hide..FIGHT for Jay!!!

this is torturing..

TT__________________TT

Eid Mubarak!

2009-09-21T19:03:00.002+12:00

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir dan Batin~

Kali ini iA Raya terakhir di Auckland..

Alhamdulillah smuanya b'jalan lancar..n this time its better than last year..lg meriah dgn makanan yg yummy2..

ahh i'm so full!

esok nk start puasa 6 iA ikut daddy..we had enuff of foods already..so yeahh..bye2 raya!
okeh pasni kena stadi..rabu ni test..wish me luck!!

Selamat Hari Raya again~

ps:i miss him~

demam lg..

2009-09-15T12:46:00.001+12:00

today..again..

not a very good day..

hopefully i'll feel better later..

tkmau miss class..

sigh..

y demam bila nk start uni?..huhuhu..

demam....

2009-09-14T22:49:00.002+12:00

rasa cm nk dmam hari nih..

sakit tekak dh brp hari dh..

adehhh esok de tutorial presentation..

hopefully esok da sihat..

amin..

2pm HWAITING!!!!!

i miss park jaebum..

Jay and Jin

2009-09-13T20:12:00.004+12:00

uwahhhh!~

i can't believe the hols is finally over after 2 whole weeks!!
i love holiday..
part of me wanting to start so i can go back home earlier..
but..there's also
part of me wanting to continue the holiday cuz i'm not ready to face the busy period again..huhu..

i'm gonna go back on 28 december..most probably..uwahhh sooo late..but have to lah..want to experience last christmas here..not that i celeb8 it..but yeah just wanna see their culture b4 going back to malaysia for good..
haha..going back for good..how good is that sounds?? though i dont wanna start working too fast but i don't really wanna study anymore..anyway..a working experience sounds nice esp b4 getting married..omoo..! married! GILE..idk when will i be getting married..but i must go to japan with my besties 1st b4 that!! ^o^ gotta kumpul duit and SAVE SAVE SAVE!!! JAPAN!! MATTE NE!!! XD

ok..now for the sad part of my week..

my PARK JAEBUM..or JAY PARK..on 080909..he quitted 2pm..how sad is that???..i cried n cried whenever i saw the news..i cried alone when i cook,in the bath,alone in the room..just 4 jay..wth never thought of the day would come..but yeah i cried for a celebrity..even i've never cried for jinjin b4..JIN..don't u dare make me cry! >.<

jay oh jay..i know u're gonna come back..now i've accepted the fact that u're gone for the moment..take your time..rest and think..then come back a strong 2pm leader! the one that'll stand strong for their members..be a superb hyung bb! i know u can do it!!!

i watched your supposedly 'last' performance with 2pm..wth..khun wasn't even there..huhu..i wished there's 7 of you..but yeah..after this..they're gonna b 6 for a long time until u decided to come back..n i'll wait for the day..taec was..really upset during "i hate you" perf..i've never seen taec being that 'beast'ly during a perf..he really looks like he hates the fans..the way he took off his shades..ughh how depressing..wonder the fans know what's gonna happen the next 3 days..they sure be crying during the perf..but they were happy..see jay your fans were happy when you guys are together even when u sang i hate you with totally sad,depressing,vengeful face..they didn't know..we didn't know it's gonna be this bad..i read the story bout how a fan,she came all the way from america to see your on your anniversary..being happy to see your glimpse under JYP building..then going back knowing nothing on the day u left..she's really happy then..she..she..her world fell miserably just like that when she read that u've left..how sad was that?i'm glad i'm not her..then i'll not b able to recover this fast..it's really not easy to accept..

i wish..u'll hear the fans and come back on your will..when u're ready..cuz u know..the fans are with you..i hope u know that jay..hurmm how i wish jay is reading my post rite now..sigh..
u're really one of the kind jay bb..stay true to yourself..make us proud..COME BACK! show the stupid ppl the real 'never give up' JAY PARK!!!

HOTTEST LOVE YOU JAY!!!

and for jin..yes,jin..i've not forgotten bout you..i can't wait for your solo debut eventhough everyone are kinda against it..but i'll support you..i'll support other members' solo project as well..this is how u gonna grow creatively..i cant understand some ppl who don't wanna support you cuz they think it'll make kat-tun fall apart..i just..cannot agree with that..when kame did DB ALONE..they didn't say anything..when maru n ueda were doing their solo concert..they were fine with it..then when u..trying to break away for a while..just promoting your movie..cannot be accepted by the fans..i just can't believe it..sigh..i wish they'd understand more..i want you to have more success..more future projects..so that u're gonna b a legend..just cant understand those who didn't want 2 watch your love scene hence, your movie just bcoz they're jealous..do they think you're gonna marry them or something?haha..wtv they're still my frens nonetheless..but i just can't accept their view on that..i wish they're more open on that..huhu..i'll watch it..or even buy the dvd when it comes out..i'll support you till the day i'm not able to support u anymore..but as for now..u go baby!! don't give up your dreams!!

ok i think i've wrote enough to survive another sem..hahaha..or yeah mybe i'm gonna write again the nest time i'm stressed..

till then

ciao..

jgn lupa malam lailatul Qadar..^^

I HAVE NOT..YET

2009-08-20T20:14:00.004+12:00

DO U WANT TO LOOK AT MY SCHEDULE?

TOMORROW : @8 FINANCE 362 TEST <---so hard!! HAVE NOT FINISH ALL THE PRACTICES YET

MONDAY : @4 ASSIGNMENT FINANCE 362 DUE <--- HAVE NOT START YET

TUESDAY : @9 AUDITING TUTORIAL <-- HAVE NOT LOOK AT THE QUES YET
@10 ASIAN 140G TEST <-- HAVE NOT FINISH READING YET
@4PM FINANCE 351 TEST <-- HAVE NOT STUDY ALL YET

I'VE GOT 3 DAYS APPROX :MINUS~

COOKING TIME
SLEEPING TIME
TALKING TIME
FB TIME
BATHING TIME
CLEANING TIME
DREAMING TIME
QURAN READING TIME
SOLAT TIME
TAKING WUDUK TIME
HALF DAY OF DAURAH/USRAH/IFTAAR/TERAWIKH
ETC...

WILL I BE DEAD?? HOPE NOT! HUHUHU..

WEDNESDAY : I'LL BE SLEEPING ALL DAY!! XDXDXDXDXD

~LIFE IS HARD, BUT NOT LIVING IS EVEN WORSE~

I OFFICIALLY HATE FINAL YEAR!

2009-08-10T21:55:00.005+12:00

Salam minna

Just 3 things to say..

ONE..

I WANT MY AKANISHI BACKKK!!!!

please be over with the concert honey n come back to tokyo to make more new songs!!!

I really miss my baby..(TT____TT)

TWO..

damn..i'm really tense rite naw..my tutorial q haven't finished..feels like screaming! y so damn freaking hard??? adeh!!seyesly..cut us some slack laaaa..we have lots more things to dooooo!!huhu..

I OFFICIALLY HATE FINAL YEAR!

PMS?? HAHAHAHAHA! YEAH SEKAI!~ XD

THIRD..

I ENVY MY SIS..SHE'S SO DAMN HAPPY NOW..I WISH I COULD FIND HAPPINESS LIKE THAT ONE DAY..
*SIGH* Y IS JIN A JAPANESE?A SINGER?N LIVE IN JAPAN??? HUHUHU..HE'S MY PERFECT MAN..HE'S JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO GET....................!!!!
*SUPER SIGH*

SORE DAKE!
JAA NA!
BUBYEEEE~~~

ignore this..lol!

2009-06-15T20:52:00.001+12:00

having fun..when otak dh penuh..n while FG-ing with pika..hihi..

LOL..makes me happy! ^_^

2009-06-15T19:41:00.001+12:00

hehehe..

2009-06-15T19:32:00.002+12:00

Kesunyian dalam Kesibukan

2009-06-10T16:27:00.003+12:00

"kesunyian dlm kesibukan.."

i saw diane's ym status today..

tears flowing..

shocked at how much it's so true for me as well..

i'm busy..

but..

i'm alone..

so alone.....

GOD..

please send someone from 128173 TAMAN RAPAT PERDANA,IPOH MALAYSIA..

at least one..

at least just one..

I NEED THEM..

pissed off

2009-05-28T22:11:00.001+12:00

so pissed!

WHERE IS MY BTR AND RESCUE???!!

IT'S BEEN A MONTH ALREADY!

DAMN YOU NZ POST!!

huhu..

i miss everybody~missy pms is coming i guess..huhu..

Sigh

2009-05-20T12:46:00.003+12:00

argghh sakit kepala!
tkmau buat kerja!!
nak blk rumah..
yes! in malaysia!!..
cpatlaaaa masaaa~
need to find new strength..

everything's so hard rite now~ T___T why??..don't ask..

ouh yeah..my last presentation was done yesterday..yay no more for this sem!..i can rest happily..well..not really..got tonnes of study to catch up..*sigh* when is this goin to end?..

as for amejinjin..i'm NOT HAPPY with u guys! becauseeee..
why did u sing murasaki together without me watching?????!!!
soooooooooo unfairrr!!!*cries*

i wanna go BACK!!!...or go to TOKYO!!! whichever is fine..asalkan i'm away from all these stress~T_________________T

ps:i still love amejinjin~XD

i'm scared of responsibility?

2009-05-10T15:30:00.002+12:00

i'm scared..
why? because..i've just realised that i have a big responsibility up in my sleeves..

what responsibility?..

ISLAM..

my deen..my life..

for this whole time i'm alive it never occurs to me that being a muslim comes with a big responsibility..not just by praying,doing good deed,hajj,fasting..but there is something else..
even bigger..which i'm now really scared of..for if i'm really determined to continue this..if i really want to get Al-Jannah..

i have to leave..*cries* KAT-TUN..*cries*

......

we'll see how..

It's finally shipped!

2009-04-29T08:24:00.002+12:00

Dear Nadhirah Mohd Ghazali,

Thank you for shopping with YesAsia.com, the No.1 Online Asian Entertainment Store. Your order (Order Number: 5408984) was successfully shipped on [Apr 28,2009], and you should be receiving it shortly. Thank you again for shopping with us, and we look forward to serving you in the near future.

*jumping and dancing around*

so happy~~~~~~~~~~~~

ATTRACTION~

2009-04-28T19:41:00.007+12:00

I've noticed long ago~~

I LOVE "PRETTY-BAD-BOY" GUYS~

AKANISHI JIN of course!! JE's very own bad boy~party all night long-i-don't-care-what-other-ppl say- but he's also innocent in his own way~sweet and sensitive heart..just perfect~~
♥♥♥~~MY FOREVER LOVE~~♥♥♥

KYAAAHH!!! the eyes!! NISHIKIDO RYO's the name~he's the one with laser tongue and a pure childish heart..his coolness and shyness is just toooo cute!!!

OMG! CHUCK BASS!!! the BAD BOY in GG..i love him for simply being Chuck~the mistery behind chuck is irresistable!!

NICK CARTER! my lollypop teenage crush turn to be a real hottie~he transformed from the cutie pie,the baby in BSB to the party guy~woohooo!!~
he's my first celeb crush and forever will be~
last but NOT LEAST~~ TOM CRUISE!!!!!!
no words to describe him~he's just simply HOT!!!

doumooooooo~~~~!!! *do it like nakamaru's opening* ^_^"

this time's post..the original idea is from murni..i steal ok~hihi..
I KNOW..I KNOW~~some may say that bad boys are not good for you..
but..i am what i am~i can't resist them! LOL!!!

another happy day~~

2009-04-27T00:34:00.003+12:00

gosh!another reason to be happy about!!

KAT-TUN's 4th album is out!!! *jumps happily*

Break the records - by you & for you

jin n kame looks awesome! junno~what did u do to yr hair??..and koki~"great" lyrics! LOL!
KAT-TUN is WIN <33333

can't wait for my copy to arrive!!! lalalala~~~

Hontou ni Ureshi!!

2009-04-25T08:48:00.004+12:00

I'm HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

Just received the best parcel ever yesterday!!!!

*jumping happily*

MY OWN POTATO AND POPEYE!!!!!!!

*edit*
DUIT DAH MASUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALHAMDULILLAH!! THANK YOU YA ALLAH!!!!!

OMG2!!!! IM SO HAPPY I COULD CRY!!!

*Will edit later with pictures..*

Horse Riding!

2009-04-19T20:32:00.004+12:00

wow..jus realised that the last post was like. 2 WEEKs AGO..

well..i AM busy..cuti pun busy kan?..huhuhu..kinda wish the holiday would extend lil bit more and give me more rest which i should get this holiday..yeah..the last 3 weeks was hell busy!..with lotsa program..hurmm..not the cuti i'd expect..demo tanoshi katta!!..the first week..its agama week..lots of usrah activity..alhamdulillah..got daurah,rehlah..and many more related to it..then preparing for the jaulah was kinda torturing..not because of the job..but hurmm..the ppl?..well its okay..just a bit misunderstanding..i'm okay now..then..i'm busy with fundraising last week..but i learned a lot during the task..hope to do it again!!..then..murni's house..sooooo fun!!! though its just ONE DAY! :(( but it's worth it..but..i wanna do the pocho2 again with more energy..dat day i was really drained out..so tired already..don't want to do it actually..still did it for murni..XD we talked a lot when we meet each other..it's really nice to pour everything all out..eventhough she talked more..LOL!well its because i dont have that many probs as last yr..next time i have prob,i'll tell everything! v(^_^)v i wish my trip to murni's hse could be be longer..humm..next time lah..mybe if i don't have work..i'll stay over the weekend ke..probably..

well..anyway..the main reason i want to post this is cus i want to share some pictures for last week's trip!!!! yoohoooooooooo!!!!~~~~
it's my first horse riding trip!!!!!!~~~~

WILD WEST TREKKING at AWHITU(i think XP) uuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~LOL!!

ok Done!..

ahh..i miss talking nonsense in this blog..huhu..

1582-kamenashi kazuya

2009-04-10T08:30:00.003+12:00

ohayou~~

2009-04-10T07:46:00.004+12:00

ohayou gozaimasu~~!!!!

i've just woke up..and i feel like writing something..XP

ahhhh sooooooooo sleeeeepy!!!!..want to go back to bed..but can't..can't..can't get used to it..waking up late is not good for you..

i dream bout him again today..T___________T
why??..i don't want to..i don't understand why..and her also in that dream..and i tell you what..the irony is..we are renting in the same apartment!!!well..in the dream laa..scary to think about..but the story's more to..he wants us to get back together..crushing her heart..
hurmmmmmmm..do i want that??..what is the true meaning of that dream???..did i dream it cuz i think bout him so much lately??..arghhhh!!!!..*want to forget*

ok..ok..forget bout him!!!!

lets talk about KAT-TUN!!! \(^_^)/

i'm now listening to SADISTIC LOVE(preview)!!!! dlfhudslifvhsldbljbL SBdslgdbvlibh!!!!!!!!!!!!!*speechless* I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!! seriously what else to say???? simple is big rite??..seriously..it's simple rock!just my cup of tea..i know the song would be AMAZING by just looking at the title..*grin* i'm proud of them..they r leaving the age of lagu2 lembik like i like it,you..etc(not so many)..all their recent songs are amazing!!!..i want to album so badly now!!!
i want to listen to water dance pulak..it must be super amazing as well..*listening*
my gosh!jin's voice!!"i'm dancing in water"~~~~wow sexy song!!!well..i love sadistic love more..but it's interesting as well! i'm not loving the techno voice..as usual~*hate techno*..but i love the melody!(^.^)v..wanna listen??

KaT-TuN

okay..now move on to 1582 and Care..i can't describe just how much i love these 2 songs!(yup the word love pop up again~XD) unexpectedly i love a kame solo!wuhuuuuu!!!the violin and the mystery in the song~i'm super loving it!!! i think it's my fav kame solo,followed by kizuna,then someday for somebody..that's all..the others..well..honestly i don't really like them..gomen kazu-chan!! m(___)m
well as for CARE~ofcourse i love my baby's song..it's more matured voice wise..it is more rockish..which is good^^..i love jinjin singing rock songs! i want my natsu~XD

okay2..nuff said bout them..i love their music more and more!!!..proud of you,KAT-TUN!!!

well..bout my life..today's holiday..good friday..must be a good gal today..LOL!
well what to do??..yeahhh study!!!..tomorrow's jaulah day..yosh berusaha!!!^^

kay..that's all..thank you for reading..*bows*

mata ne!!*waves*

OOKURANDO SAMUI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-09T16:15:00.005+12:00

GILA SEJUK!!!

that's what on my mind rite now..

AUCKLAND is colder~winter is definitely coming~fuyu(winter) wo daikirai!!!..its not that i hate winter that much..but the coldness!!the numbness in my hands while i was trying to write assignment..the layers of cloths that i have to wear..the red nose..ughh..the unpleasent heat from the heater is the worst!!!..please spring come fast~i miss you...

It was raining heavily in Auckland today..it's just FINALLY over 5 mins ago..yokatta!~

HUJAN BATU!!!!! O-M-G-!!!!!

I was hit a thousand times with small tiny ice rocks today on my way to the library..
CHO ITAI!!! it hurts!! well just a little~but still~~~it was soooooooooo cold!!!!and slippery!
Alhamdulillah i brought my umbrella today..for the 1st time this year!! accidentally..so i have some protection from those crazy,tiny rocks!! >_< if not..i don't know what'll happen to me~grrrrrrrr..getting my face hit by ice rocks are NOT cool.. BUT YEAH~~ it was cool anyways~~my 1st experience with hujan batu~hope it's not going to happen again! what..peribahasa melayu says..hujan emas di negara org,hujan batu di negara sendiri..(am i rite?very bad with malay peribahasa) but..it was totally the opposite!! LOL!!!

grrrrr~~~COLDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! lets end this coldness with the awesome hotness..brought to you by none other than~~~~

AKANISHI-KUN!!!!!

urayamashi yo~~~he's in spring..so he can wear short sleeves~~huhu..
i want POPEYE MAG as a birthday present!!!!!!!!!

ps1:gomen na..can't show you the hottest pic..cuz it's public blog..lol!!!
ps2:1582 and care are awesomely superbly amazing!!!! i'm in love~~~

tk puas hati~ >_<

2009-04-07T14:04:00.001+12:00

just now..i'm soo bored so i took sometimes reading my sister's blog..

then tk pasal2~~~

y do i have to read it till the end??..i'm tagged~=_=

so what to do..i'll just do it then~seems fun..hihi..^_^

5 things in my bag:
-Japanese textbooks
-file
-botol air
-tissue
-earphone

5 things in my wallet:
- Money
- Bankcards
- phone card
- I/c
-driving license

5 favourite things in my bedroom:
- my family picture
-My bed
- KAT-TUN and JIN's calendar (yup i need to have both XP)
- my clothes
- miera~

5 things I wish to do :
- go visit Murni
- Work
- speak and read fluent japanese
- go to Japan and study their culture
- bunjy

5 things I’m doing now :
- filling up this tag(copy paste ieda lah)
- looking at the sea
- listening to Care and 1582 repeatedly for the 100000th times
- drinking pine mango juice
- biting my lips

5 people I would like to tag:

- Farah
- Murni
- Fyza
- wajeehah Ghazali
- who else is following my blog??

arghhhhhhh!!!tk puas hati laaa pasal minah nih..sensitif sgt!!!! kesian my beloved friend..
FB ni pun satu..huhu..gomen my friend..aku mintak maaf byk2 if what i wrote troubles you..
i'm so stupid..................

Omedetou Mizushima!!

2009-04-05T15:44:00.000+12:00

♥♥♥♥TO THE MIZUSHIMA COUPLE♥♥♥♥

GO KEKKON OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU!!!!!!!

*trows confetti*

i'm sooooo shocked yesterday after looking at my friend's lj page..
it says mizushima and ayaka-san are already MARRIED!!!
i was like OMG!!!! this can't be true!!!
i'm sooooooooooooo happy!!!!!
i love seeing them together..
love hiro's acting..♥♥
love ayaka's okaeri..♥♥

they get married cuz ayaka has a disease so hiro wants to protect her..
awwww soooo sweet!!! the playboy nanba-senpai is so sweet!!!
i really hope they last for a long time...
hiro better make ayaka-san happy ne!!! ^_^v

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

[LIFE]
well..it's the 2nd day of holiday already!!and i'm sooo happy!!!just got back from avondale market for shopping 2 hours ago..didn't buy much..just a tshirt and bratz blanket for my dear aisyah..she must love it because it's her favourite bratz! ^_^ i miss her so much!!!
my mom called just now while we're waiting for the bus..and i'm so happy to hear their voices..but bad news~~they told me wawa's sick *cries*..i'm so sad~~T___T~~hopefully she'll get better soon..i pray to Allah nothing's wrong with her..i wish i can go home and hug her tightly~~
i've just finished cooking 5 mins ago..just ikan masak kicap n oyster bok choy..simple n fast today..sooooo tired from the shopping..after this i'm going to Albert Park with Fyza..jalan2 and taking pictures~lalala~~hihi..i love walking while enjoying the fresh air and beatiful sceneries..that's why i love new zealand sooooo much!!! ^_^

i want to meet you~ASAP!!!

2009-04-03T23:58:00.000+13:00

"I want children," he answers without a second thought. "I really like them. I think they're adorable. I often carry my friend's kid and just walk around Shibuya normally."

Without realizing it, a slight smile peeks through while he talks. "I want three children. Boys are fine, too, but I would be really happy if the first were a girl. I would have her learn dance from a young age... and to keep her from becoming an easy(/promiscuous) woman, I'd be very strict about discipline (laugh). I want to be a young dad, so I've got to hurry. But, before that, there are still the steps of having a relationship and getting married... of course, I want to get through each of those properly, too."

-Jin Akanishi, Non-no magazine

This makes me realized why i love him so much~
he's not that 'cold and cool' guy that everybody worship~
he's just an ordinary sweet guy..
who thinks about family and friends~
oh Jin~~
i'm so in love with you~
when will we meet?..
and have 3 children~~
it's my dream too~~

i want to meet you~ASAP!!!

*just me and my mind*

Stressed out!!!!!

2009-04-01T21:58:00.000+13:00

uwaaa~~tak sangka..kelip2 mata it's Wednesday already!!

cepat2 come friday~~nk cuti cepat!!!

miss murni!nk jumpa murni!!..sedih r tp tk dapat jumpa rahmah~but tkpe~insyAllah dpt jumpa gak winter nih..

MAJOR BAD NEWS!!! kinda sedih cuz ingatkn nk gi albany jumaat nih tp tetibe lak diorg nih nk buat meeting jaulah..
i mean why THAT Friday???!!!klau nk update pun please laaaa choose anyday except that friday!!!
i want to celebrate my dearest friend's bday~i miss her sooo much ady!!!huhuhu~

(T___________T)

so many things to tell her..so many things to complain with her..wanna let'em all out!!!..

lately..i don't feel like myself anymore..the "busy-ness" had slowly making myself faded i think..i feel like i took less care about myself these days..ugh sooo stressed!!!..

but but..i know i have to handle this by my own..i HAVE to!! who else can help me??..they r all busy with their things~~missing mummy so badly!!need mummy's huggles! (; _ ; )

i really need a vacation..a break..anything!!!..

miss fangirling with my dearest Akame fangirls~i MISS AKAME too!!! miss them sooo much!!!..
a week without them is a torture!!!ughhhh!!!!*pull hair*

i wanna do bunjy~~~

i wanna fly~~maybe do skydiving??..

but i'm gonna need more moneyyy!!!..anyone rich to sponsor me??..huhu..

IN MY DREAM!!*sigh*

*wishing jin's here*

A busy week

2009-03-30T11:52:00.000+13:00

Today, it's a start of a tough week.. i have to get myself together and fight for it!!!..

Yosh!!! I believe God is with me to get through my everyday life!!! GOD is always by my side~

Monday- Japanese Test~i think i can score this so i'm not that worried..but still i have to do revision..

Tuesday - Presentation~kowaii!..i haven't memorise all my points yet..need confidence!but i know i can do it!

Wednesday - 371 Test - the scariest of all~haven't finish studying..but InsyaAllah i'll finish by today n tomorrow i'll start with the practices..

Thursday - Jaulah meeting~and i need to get ready for the toughest tutorial,the next day..

Friday - Tough tutorial..but if i manage to do a good preparation maybe i'll do better than last week..we'll see..

yup,the anticipated week has finally come..
all i have to do is get through it..either i survive or die..
whatever it is~

GOD is my strength~
Family is my strength~
KAT-TUN is my strength~

dakara...

GANBARIMASU!!!!!!!!

v(^ _ ^ ;)v

GanGanGanbatte - NEWS

Don't Forget

2009-03-29T20:31:00.000+13:00

sunday,29 March 2009

kenapa asyik teringatkan dia hari ni??..why??? all i want to do is forget him!
it's Demi Lovato's Don't Forget's fault!!

*cries*

hate my pathetic self..jin-kun~tasukete! T________T

Dont Forget - Demi Lovato

Lyrics | Demi Lovato Lyrics | Don%27t Forget Lyrics

Quiz Result!!

2009-03-26T00:34:00.000+13:00

just a quick post here..juz now i did a quiz..

Take the 7 Minutes in Heaven with KAT-TUN quiz.

You're at a party with KAT-TUN and they ask you if you wanted to play "7 Minutes in Heaven" with them. You nod 'yes' and picked the number _____ out of the hat.

23 4 5 10 29 9

this is the result..

7 Minutes in Heaven with KAT-TUN

You picked....Jin Akanishi!!!!

"I picked....number 4." you said as you showed the boys the piece of paper. "Okay, get into the closet and in a few minutes your guy will come in." Koki explained ans he pushes you into the closet. You go in and wait for about 5 mins. 'Hurry up already!' you thought to your self. Then Jin comes in with a smirk on his face as he closes the door. "W-What's so funny?!" you exclaimed nervously. "You just looked so worried. I find that cute." Jin says as he walks closer towards you. You to chat for a bit. "S-So do you like any sports?" you asked him. "Yeah. I like soccer." he says. "Oh, me too!" you say with a smile on your face. A big smile also appeared on his face. "I guess we have a lot in common." he says coming even closer to you. He walks closer and closer until your back hits the bare wall. You start blushing and looks away. "Is something wrong,_____?" Jin asks. You shake your head 'no'. You had nowhere to go, you tried to escape but before you could even move Jin grabbed you by the arm and kissed you passionately. He wanted the kiss to last longer and so did you. So, Jin held you tighter and closer to him, and both of you kiss deeply. It lasted long enough for Koki to open the door and pull Jin right out. "Hey, that was 8 minutes." Koki complained, "What were you guys doing in there?" Both you and Jin didn't answer his question. Both of you blushed. "Ha. Take that Kame! I win the bet." Koki exclaimed. "Wait, what bet are you guys talking about?" Jin asked. "Kame and I made a bet that if you two lasted more than 7 minutes _____ had to go on a date with you." Koki explained with a big smirk on his face. "But, I didn't even know about this!!" Jin exclaimed. "Oh, so you don't wanna go out with me. I thought you wanted to." you said sadly. "I do wanna go out with you." Jin said. And there, the next day you two "lovebirds" are going out on a date. Hope ya liked it!!

just a big,loud n clear..

kyaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

do it here!

u can do other ones..i got jin 2 times n kame 3 times..yeah..just to past some time after doing a hard assignment..

YZARC M'I

2009-03-24T23:15:00.000+13:00

hahaha..u know what??..i did something crazy today~totally out of my mind!!
i went to a movie!!!!!! wooohoooooooo!!!!!
yeahh..it may sound weird to you n u'll be like O.o.what is she talking about??..it's so normal..
but yeah..
in this hectic time..i consider going to a movie while tons of assignments lying on the table waiting to be touched is definitely ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!!!!!
me and my ramble~
but..it was definitely worth it!!! i watched the "confession of a shopaholic". it was a great movie overall..it was funny,a bit sad,fluffy..and best of all..the actor was cute!!haha..i learn a thing or two bout financial management which was good..but all the gucci,prada,lv,jimmy choo stuff really makes me wanna go shopping!!haha!nooo i really shouldn't..or else it'll become the crazy things i did no 2!!!muahahaha..but yeah i'm glad i accept my roomate's invitation to watch the movie..i was just going cuz i felt sorry for her..she really want to watch it but there's no one to accompany her..sooo i went with her..and for the second time..i'm realllllllllllly glad i did!!!! cuz i don't really feel the burden too much anymore..maybe not tomorrow..but as for tonite,i'll be sleeping like a baby..without worries!yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

here's another good news! KAT-TUN's 4th album is coming out!!!! i don't know if it's really a good news or not cuz i don't really have the money to buy one..but yattttaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! i'm really happy for them! 10 straight no 1 singles..and hopefully 4 straight no 1 album!!! i'm really proud of them..i know this album is gonna be great!their music taste is getting better and better..just listen to rescue!white xmas!!on your mind!!it's tooooooooooooooooo good!!
i wish i can buy one..the limited edition one..please pray for me~~

i want to do a kame picspam too..just simply cuz i love him to bits!and cuz i'm waiting for CKT 102 which is gonna be tomorrow!he's soooo cute nowadays..i just want to squeeze him!!but farah,pika and particularly jin will be mad at me..so yeah..i'll spare him..=.=
i'll just hug him~nice and warm~~~ *wink2* XDDDD

arrrr..nobody can resist that!!!*flails*
and that!!! kyaaaaah~~

and the stares! dslguhavsveaflisbfv!!

*faints*

kame is such a teaser!just want to hug him right here!!

yes..kame..i'll take anything u give me!i bet he's a good cook!!

thinking bout jinjin,kazu???

i wanna do more!!!but i'm a bit tired..got red eyes already..a sign that i should sleep..huhu..
but i'll do more later ne kazu~i love you no matter what!^^

picspamming

2009-03-23T23:43:00.000+13:00

i am just too depressed with my works!..y so many???? i just don't feel like doing it anymore..
taking breaks~ this week is the worst! next week too..i can feel it..assignments,tutorials prep,tests,presentation~~in addition i have to catch up with my readings which i haven't got time to do..argghhhh!!!!!watever~thank god i'm not doing medic or anything hard like that..feel like spamming this blog with my jinjin.. XD (a chance to look at my dearest many2 times..hehe..)

cute beanie ne~~i love him with caps/beanies *huggles jin*

thinking bout me?? XDDD

many faces of my jinjin~♥♥♥♥

laughing carelessly..so cute!!!

i love his hair here..my fav!!!*wishing my future _____ have the same hair style* XD

dflhvslfhbfhhuha;!!!! kawaiiii!

gosh~i adore his smile! please smile more jin!!*i know u will when kame's around**wink2* XD

i prefer u sweet~

....and sexy~can't choose!!!!

arhh!the nerdy look! ...can't..resist...temptation!~

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~~~~feeling better now!!!*hugging jin tightly* thanks sweety!!!!!

~but missing mummy...

♥♥♥♥♥♥special for my 6 lovely boys♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-03-22T18:49:00.000+13:00

wahh..lamanyaa tk post anything here..too busy..zannen desu ne~~huhuhu..

but this post is juz for a special shout-out to my special ones~

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST
KAT-TUN!!!

forever stay the same will ya..i pray for your continuous success..i'll be behind you guys supporting every moment,ups and downs..
I PROMISE!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOO MUCHH!!!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

xoxo,
diera~♥

Hectic!!

2009-03-03T23:24:00.000+13:00

Life is so Hectic!!!

my life is turning upside down for the past 2 days..

please GOD Tasukete!!!

Japanese class je yg best..the others r not promising..they seems soo hard..

arghhh!! jinjin!!!!! please be here!!!

JusT some Random StuFF

2009-02-28T00:24:00.000+13:00

ugh.

i'm bored..

its 12.24am..lurking ard lj for some interesting news..but nothing really..and i got no one to talk to now.. X(

this house is in a really terrible mess..those ppl havn't come and take their things yet..i can't kemas my barang yet..sooo depressing.. how can i start class this monday??..the real reason i came back here sooo early(n miss kame-chan's party) is so that i can get ready for this semester..unlike last year which is realllly last min..and its tiring..but now..cuz those ppl..i can't get on my plans..i hate it..

the storm outside is quite strong..the wind is scary..kowaii~~!!it sounds like ghost or sumthing..sumone's bathrobe is hanging outside n its flying like crazy..its scary!!huhu..

listening to the preview of 7 days battle now..i LOVE it!!!well yeah i admit sumtimes(but VERY FEW!),kat-tun's songs r crapy..eg: i like it~or shot ..but honestly i like 7 days battle!since its simple plain rock..i love when kat-tun doing anything rockish..they're really something..every songs r different in their on ways..way to go KAT-TUN!! dats y i love u guys!!!

i love this pic..its so plain simple..but beautiful at the same time..i dunno how to express it in the perfect way cuz im not good in expressing my feelings but i love it...esp the right bottom pic..its just..ldhudliuflsiufhsdlfiudshvilbhsd!!!

just read utusan online..ughh!!malaysian politics r gettin worse!soo teruk! calling ppl celaka??thats just plain rude i'd say..i'm speaking as a simple girl without a very strong knowledge on politics..celaka is a very strong insult word for malay..its very unrespectful for that person to say it..especially in public!!..he shud just back off this terrible situation instead of making it worst!..sueing the sultan is one thing..but calling malays celaka is another issue..please people..living with different culture in malaysia is hard enough please don't make it harder..while i'm not being racist or anything..sumtimes i just wish..malaysian wud just make up and live peacefully..no issue like owhh chinese wants everything,the indians want this..the malays being ungrateful..blah3..please..just be grateful n live like our ancestors do..

i'm thankful i'm in New Zealand right now..i don't have to think about the situation in Malaysia..

but Malaysia please..please recover..i'm starting work next year..i don't want any problems getting jobs just bcause malaysia's politics is unstable..fix our economy!

FAST!!!

♥♥♥my A.J ♥♥♥♥

2009-02-25T23:22:00.000+13:00

OMG!!

today~~i saw the preview of my jinjin's latest photoshoot!!

it was DAMN PERFECT!!!!!!!!

here it is..

*nosebleedsssss*

credit to futari_love @lj

HE SHOULD STRECTH HIS ARM A LIL BIT MORE! and let me have a look at his perfect chest..hehehe..

how in the world can he be sooo gorgeous??!!!..its ALLAH's power..he's wayyyyy too gorge than my previous crushes..
seriously..nick carter,orlando bloom,jerry yan and leonardo D won't stand a chance next to him..i'll go straight to jinjin~~~and hug him tightly!!!*dreamin*

currently i'm totally head over heals with him..i fell in love with him for his voice(yeahh..seriously!!!i dun care if u dont believe me!!^^) demo..his personality (esp his bakaness) n finally gorgeous features had caught my attention..

i'm wonderin what did he gave to kame-chan last 2 days?..hurmmmm..i wish it is sumthing very special..i think kame shopped with jinjin n let him pay for it.^_^

aKame is ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥~~~~

HaPy bDaY KAZU!!!!!

2009-02-23T02:05:00.001+13:00

I'm Backkk!!!!

finally i'm back in Auckland for another year of study..

i've missed my life here..

but i'm really sad..cuz i'm not ready yet to be here..

furthermore!..i went back too early before i can celebrate kame's bday!!

ughhh!!! i HATE me for being too silly! i didn't even remember kame's bday when i booked my ticket..so now,i can't go to kame's bday party..

(TTTTTT__TTTTTT)

however,while still jetlagged i made a card for my jinjin's soulmate..^_^
i don't really know what i was doing..really..made it in just an hour..huhu..
sooo kazu-chan, pardon me for the really bad card..just appreciate it okay??..hehe..

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To my beloved Kamenashi Kazuya,

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU,K.K are too special for words..your attitude,your style,your voice,your seriousness,your hotness,your sexiness,your silliness, your loveliness,your cuteness..your EVERYTHING..

had always made me SMILE..

THANK YOU MY SPECIAL ONE..

HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY..

may god bless you and have a happy,healthy and long life with JIN..

v(^_^)v

Doubutsu Uranai

2009-02-18T04:01:00.000+13:00

Nadhirah
20/10/1987

You are Blue Koala, who is extremely honest person, and will say things that come up in your mind straightly.
You are also active and very cheerful.
You also possess feminine attraction and have distinguished atmosphere.
You are very popular, and tend to be with lots of people.
You value your friends too.
But unlike your outlook, you don't like to loose and are a strong-minded person.
You possess strong will-power, and are independent enough to carry things out without getting the help of the others.
You have great creativity sense and are much talented in this.
You act simply, but you possess complicated inner emotions.
You may be thought little bit eccentric.
You like to lead varied life, and try to change the atmosphere yourself too.
You can make ~~quick decisions, and possess courage.~~
You are well liked by both men and women.
You have great sense of instinct and can get right at the point of things.
You can affect people as well.
You are very strict on money. <-- TRUE!
You will not go buying things on impulse.
Someone you love and your love life is what is most important to you in your life.
You possess great natural skill to manipulate men. ??
You should not rush into marriage after a passionate love.

you can try it too!!^^

can't sleep

2009-02-17T04:47:00.000+13:00

I CAN'T SLEEP

for however long i waited on bed,eyes closed, blanket covering warming my body..

i can't sleep..naze??

i don't know particularly..when i closed my eyes..everything comes as freely as they are gone during the day..does that makes sense??..i think about the unthinkable future..i think about future conversation..i think about the unforgiven past..i think about A LOT of things..

WHY??..

i hope i found the answer..SOMEDAY..

i don't want to be a person who only thinks but never act..

so random..

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nuff said..i'm writing this so that the glaring light of this laptop would eventually caused me to feel sleepy..i know it's bad for my eyes..but i think it's working..my eyes hurts i just want to close them..

kyou wa..

i cut my hair short..just before i go back to auckland..my beloved city of boredom..3rd year of study..really scares me..the idea of working full time afterwards..really gives me goosebumps if u asked me..i don't have enough experience in the real world..my social life is a disaster..i'm too nervous being with people..especially people in the business industry..i have to think,give opinion,detect problem, so much faster..i have to listen to people,follow orders,endure torturing bosses..ugh! too scary to even imagine..the past two years hasn't really teach me anything to be someone that efficient..i play a lot..avoiding people..avoiding jobs..but all that had brought me nothing but an unprepared soul..i hate me sometimes..

However..

i have new hopes for this semester..

i wish it'll work out the way i wanted..

Namida

2009-02-16T13:54:00.000+13:00

ughhh..

i feel terrible..

tears flowing..

DAMN!!!

WaWa and a TIRING Day

2009-02-16T03:40:00.000+13:00

ohhhh my god!! i'm sooo tired today..gone to visit wawa today at MRSM pengkalan hulu which is sooooo far!! its like going to penang then come back home in one day..which is exhausting and draining..it took allllll my power today..
but on the other hand..i got to see wawa!! which i've missed since like forever!!..she's my pretty n intelligent lil sister..the last i've seen her was like a month ago..ohh yeahh..last gong xi fa cai..i miss her sooo much..and today was the last time im gonna meet her this year..well until i've come back again to malaysia that is..she sooo hardworking..when we arrived this morning after a very very early departure from home (i had to wake up earlier then my usual time)..aisyah and i went looking for her in her room but the rest of the student gone!!! yeahh..hysterically (well not really).. we asked around and found out that she was having her mentor mentee class..yeahh bummer..we come early and have to wait for her to finish for like 45 min or less..then there she was..still gorge! but dad just had to pick at her and told her she had gained weight..woooo!!way to go daddy!!hehe..well after that we went to Baling..a really small town,smaller than KK i guess but it was okay..we shopped for her things..then go for lunch..i missed the supposedly sedap ikan bakar cuz my dad didnt remember the way..so we had to eat at a smaller gerai..but the nasi ayam there was delish!!! i'd like to go eat there again..a restaurant with big payung on top of it..i'll remember it..but but..i dont know whether i'm ever gonna go there anymore cuz wawa's finishing high school this year sooo the chance of going back there is really tiny..okey then after lunch,we sent her back to school and go straight home..i slept for most of the journey..we arrived i think just before 5.30pm..yeahh very late..and i dont plan to do anything active since i've had lost my energy for the day..so i just watch tv and gossip girl tonight..

downloading ueda's waratte itomo and hanamaru's interview currently..and hoping to watch it tomorrow..i reallllllllllly want to watch his romeo n juliet play..i bet its gonna b good!..i want to watch ueda acting!uwaaaa hopefully he'll get drama role next..woohooo!!i love anything that KAT-TUN member do..

jin below kame??*grins*

Ueda..ooops!! here's our japanese ROMEO!!

OMG!! JIn and Chocolate will forever b my addiction!!*flails and faint*

Happy Valentine Day!!!

2009-02-15T02:44:00.000+13:00

Happy Valentine Day everyone!!!-er..or..to whoever read my posts..

Today's 14th Feb..Valentine day..
though i've never really celebrate it..but i do get wishes..well that was until last year..
this year..sadly none!!..x((

Well....okay okay..it is nothing to be sad about actually cuz this year alhamdulillah..i got a new valentine!!!..

my NEW lappy!!!!!

yeayyyyyyy!!!! super ureshi rite now!!!!

due to the last super broken notebook..yeah i mean..reallllly broken..rosak teruk and had to be fixed like thousand time!!!!okay i'm exaggerating..but oh well..my dad had promised me to get a new one before i fly back to NZ soooo..this is it!!!

my new sweetheart..a 12" hp compaq..i adore it so muchhh!!!

Since it's valentine today..my first everrrrr wally is jinjin's valentine wally!!..its not really clear there in the pix above but well..i used my sis's hp..so lazy to find a real camera..jinjin's showing a heart symbol is the best for this valentine..i wonder how much did he get chocos today..i bet its uncountable!! i wish i can give him chocolate too..but..oh well..reality sucks! and i'm still here in malaysia..and he's..well..in Japan..the land of all amazing things!!!..
notice dat my mousepad is akame!!! its my first time using it! hahaaa!! i planned to use it when i'm back in auckland butttt i can't hold it anymore! since i get my lappy today..y not i use it today?? rite?..i love my akame mousepad! bought it with pika and betty..they're sooo lovely..i want to shop with them againnnnn!!!! but sadly i'm going away before we can hang out more often..arghhhh!!! y it is has to b this way??..well its god's plan..i can't change it..but i'm hoping this year will b sooooo fast and without knowing it,it'll b time for me to say gudbye to auckland and then i promise myself to spend some times with them more and more!!.yeahh.. ^_^

btw..yesterday was..what day is yesterday?..uh friday ne..i couldn't post anything due to my 'buziness'..hehe..i went to tbung haji to get some money for my lappy's repair cost..then i went to bandar i forgot for what..ohh yeahh..my sis wanna get some things for her class..well she the ketua keceriaan for her class..so she needs some gift wrapper? for her class..she's working tooo hard for the sake of 'beautifying' the class i tell yah..huhh..wth jus leave her with her work..
then after bandar..we went home and i'm sooo tired i slept for a while..at night i watched telly..
and that's all..

yeahhh..so bland and plain..this is me..XP

Pregnant Guy Vs Vampire Book

2009-02-12T19:41:00.000+13:00

I've been wondering bout what i'm gonna post today..seriously,i've done nothing really interesting today too! awww..so sad!! isk2..

i woke up quite late today then straight away i logged on to lj and looking for some info to satisfy my addiction..to KAT-TUN ofcourse!!! hehehe..well..nothing new..but i spent some of my time reading a fanfic..entitled..jeng jeng jenggggg.."sexy pregnant darling"!!u guys can found it here-->> (warning!!don't open if you despise gay story) hahaha..wat is it about???..jin is pregnant in the making of ONE DROP PV..kvsjdhbfsdlfjhbvfslf!!!!!!! kyaaaaa!!! Akame story!!! interestingly..i love it!!!hehehe..maybe cuz its reallllly weird having the idea that my darling sexy hubby is pregnant!!!with ame's kiddo!! and twins tooo!!haha..seriously i can't stop laughing when i think about it..(^_^)v

okay2...nuff bout pregnant jin..hehe..i've also been reading twilight too..finished half ady and i'll continue before bed 2nite..interesting enough..but i've watched the movie soo i kinda know the ending already..i wanna read new moon but..i have to resist myself and finish twilight 1st..to anyone who hasn't read the books..its really recommended!!! ^=^

This is it!! TWILIGHT!

humm..i'm really bored rite now..should i write about KAT-TUN??
maybe later..hehe..

well..i'll end this time with my sexy darling too!!

isn't his smile sooooo luvly??

And.....my hubby's hubby! KAMENASHI KAZUYA!!

he's my pika-chan luver!!

ciao!!

oN My MiNd

2009-02-11T23:11:00.000+13:00

... Baby please come back to wa ienai

“Baby, please come back” I won’t say it

Ano koro ni wa kaerenai

We can’t go back to those days

Sugisaru toki no nagare to

To the time that flowed away

Tada ima wa sugosu dake

And now, I’m just letting it pass by

Kienu omoi ga Coming back

The erased memories are Coming back

Itsuka toki hanateru no nara

If someday, I can dissolve it and let go

I believe inoru youni

I believe, like a prayer

I just wanna forget

I just wanna forget ...

(On My Mind, KAT-TUN)

That’s the chorus for a new KAT-TUN song. It does means something in my life if u ask me..

What??! Its a SECRET!! Shhhhh!! (^p^)

Well..i just wanna forget everything bad that happened last year..

and start a NEW BEGINNING..

I really needed it!

Thus....(drumroll)

I’m starting this blog from now on..cewahhh..

Hehehe..

I’m always to lazy to write in a blog..but i found out that its kinda interesting u know..

Dakara..i’m taking my chances and here i am..

So wish me luck!!

To keep this blog going..

to start of..

i'm showing u my hubby!!

AKANISHI JIN!! isn't he hot?? (^o^)

which KAT-TUN member is your true love by annabella1988
name
first love
current lover
secret lover
you marry this guy
your true love is...

Your date with KAT-TUN and NEWS by kenzou
Username
You will go on a date with:
Then he will appear:
And will kiss you	on your cheek
Which makes your partner:	beat you
So that you will leave your partner, and meet him:
Who will invite you a restaurant, where you will:	just talking and no ordering
The bill will be:	$515
On your way to home, you will meet this guy:
Who will:	hug you and piggy-back you home
At home, you will write an email about this day to

Which Kat-tun Member Will You Marry? by Miku
Name
Age
Member that you want to marry
Date	April 15, 2011
Member you're getting marry to	Akanishi Jin

Who in KAT-TUN is your true love by miyuxx
Name
Age
Who do you like
Who likes you
Who do you marry
Who is your true love
in the end	both of you die

What would you get for your birthday? (KAT-TUN & NewS) by greenberryhair
Name
Birthday (mm/dd/year)
Best Friend
Gift	Trip to Ireland
Boyfriend
Gift	A new car
Secret Admirer
Gift	Stuffed Monkey
Neighbor
Gift	$100
Roommate
Gift	A compliment
Stalker
Gift	A new car

Your JE Family featuring Arashi, Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, NEWS, Kinki Kids, and TxT by ginryuu
Your Name:
Your Age:
Your Favorite Color:
Your Ichiban:
Your Father:
Your Mother:
Your Sibling #1:
Your Sibling #2:
Your Pet:
Your Best Friend:
Your Lover:
Your Stalker: