Wednesday, August 18, 2010
It's me again
Friday, June 25, 2010
Kizuna
I, unaware of anything, did not know to stay by your side
Only when I lost sight of you did I realized, far too late
Somewhere distant in my memory, I have let go of your hand
Even if we are separated, the dawn comes carrying light
I let my tears melt away, until my feelings are conveyed
I used to live my life in a rush, thinking that everything was for your sake
Even if we come to live on two different sides of the world, hold on to this eternal bond between us
If only I could turn the hands of time back to the sunset that day, back to that room,
to the moment when I could stop the words that fell from our lips
My heart remembered the day when you set out on your journey
to a place where I can't reach, and I come to bid you farewell
Even if we forget, somewhere along the road, the warmth of having met and fell in love with each other still exists
When we have traveled far and wide, there will come moments when we suddenly encounter those traces
The key to hope lies at the end of darkness,
so I simply place my trust in tomorrow
I keep painting my memory afresh with weaknesses, strengths, and scenery that I see
Even if we are separated, the dawn comes carrying light
I let my tears melt away, until my feelings are conveyed
I used to live my life in a rush, thinking that everything was for your sake
Even if we come to live on two different sides of the world, hold on to this eternal bond between us
I simply place my trust in tomorrow - FARAWAY (KAT-TUN)

Sunday, September 13, 2009
Jay and Jin
uwahhhh!~
i can't believe the hols is finally over after 2 whole weeks!!
i love holiday..
part of me wanting to start so i can go back home earlier..
but..there's also
part of me wanting to continue the holiday cuz i'm not ready to face the busy period again..huhu..
i'm gonna go back on 28 december..most probably..uwahhh sooo late..but have to lah..want to experience last christmas here..not that i celeb8 it..but yeah just wanna see their culture b4 going back to malaysia for good..
haha..going back for good..how good is that sounds?? though i dont wanna start working too fast but i don't really wanna study anymore..anyway..a working experience sounds nice esp b4 getting married..omoo..! married! GILE..idk when will i be getting married..but i must go to japan with my besties 1st b4 that!! ^o^ gotta kumpul duit and SAVE SAVE SAVE!!! JAPAN!! MATTE NE!!! XD
ok..now for the sad part of my week..

my PARK JAEBUM..or JAY PARK..on 080909..he quitted 2pm..how sad is that???..i cried n cried whenever i saw the news..i cried alone when i cook,in the bath,alone in the room..just 4 jay..wth never thought of the day would come..but yeah i cried for a celebrity..even i've never cried for jinjin b4..JIN..don't u dare make me cry! >.<jay oh jay..i know u're gonna come back..now i've accepted the fact that u're gone for the moment..take your time..rest and think..then come back a strong 2pm leader! the one that'll stand strong for their members..be a superb hyung bb! i know u can do it!!!
i watched your supposedly 'last' performance with 2pm..wth..khun wasn't even there..huhu..i wished there's 7 of you..but yeah..after this..they're gonna b 6 for a long time until u decided to come back..n i'll wait for the day..taec was..really upset during "i hate you" perf..i've never seen taec being that 'beast'ly during a perf..he really looks like he hates the fans..the way he took off his shades..ughh how depressing..wonder the fans know what's gonna happen the next 3 days..they sure be crying during the perf..but they were happy..see jay your fans were happy when you guys are together even when u sang i hate you with totally sad,depressing,vengeful face..they didn't know..we didn't know it's gonna be this bad..i read the story bout how a fan,she came all the way from america to see your on your anniversary..being happy to see your glimpse under JYP building..then going back knowing nothing on the day u left..she's really happy then..she..she..her world fell miserably just like that when she read that u've left..how sad was that?i'm glad i'm not her..then i'll not b able to recover this fast..it's really not easy to accept..
i wish..u'll hear the fans and come back on your will..when u're ready..cuz u know..the fans are with you..i hope u know that jay..hurmm how i wish jay is reading my post rite now..sigh..
u're really one of the kind jay bb..stay true to yourself..make us proud..COME BACK! show the stupid ppl the real 'never give up' JAY PARK!!!
HOTTEST LOVE YOU JAY!!!

and for jin..yes,jin..i've not forgotten bout you..i can't wait for your solo debut eventhough everyone are kinda against it..but i'll support you..i'll support other members' solo project as well..this is how u gonna grow creatively..i cant understand some ppl who don't wanna support you cuz they think it'll make kat-tun fall apart..i just..cannot agree with that..when kame did DB ALONE..they didn't say anything..when maru n ueda were doing their solo concert..they were fine with it..then when u..trying to break away for a while..just promoting your movie..cannot be accepted by the fans..i just can't believe it..sigh..i wish they'd understand more..i want you to have more success..more future projects..so that u're gonna b a legend..just cant understand those who didn't want 2 watch your love scene hence, your movie just bcoz they're jealous..do they think you're gonna marry them or something?haha..wtv they're still my frens nonetheless..but i just can't accept their view on that..i wish they're more open on that..huhu..i'll watch it..or even buy the dvd when it comes out..i'll support you till the day i'm not able to support u anymore..but as for now..u go baby!! don't give up your dreams!!ok i think i've wrote enough to survive another sem..hahaha..or yeah mybe i'm gonna write again the nest time i'm stressed..
till then
ciao..
jgn lupa malam lailatul Qadar..^^
Monday, August 10, 2009
I OFFICIALLY HATE FINAL YEAR!
Just 3 things to say..
ONE..
I WANT MY AKANISHI BACKKK!!!!
please be over with the concert honey n come back to tokyo to make more new songs!!!
I really miss my baby..(TT____TT)
TWO..
damn..i'm really tense rite naw..my tutorial q haven't finished..feels like screaming! y so damn freaking hard??? adeh!!seyesly..cut us some slack laaaa..we have lots more things to dooooo!!huhu..
I OFFICIALLY HATE FINAL YEAR!
PMS?? HAHAHAHAHA! YEAH SEKAI!~ XD
THIRD..
I ENVY MY SIS..SHE'S SO DAMN HAPPY NOW..I WISH I COULD FIND HAPPINESS LIKE THAT ONE DAY..
*SIGH* Y IS JIN A JAPANESE?A SINGER?N LIVE IN JAPAN??? HUHUHU..HE'S MY PERFECT MAN..HE'S JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO GET....................!!!!
*SUPER SIGH*
SORE DAKE!
JAA NA!
BUBYEEEE~~~
Monday, June 15, 2009
ignore this..lol!
LOL..makes me happy! ^_^
Monday, April 27, 2009
another happy day~~
KAT-TUN's 4th album is out!!! *jumps happily*
Break the records - by you & for you
KAT-TUN is WIN <33333
can't wait for my copy to arrive!!! lalalala~~~
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Hontou ni Ureshi!!
Just received the best parcel ever yesterday!!!!
*jumping happily*
MY OWN POTATO AND POPEYE!!!!!!!
*edit*
DUIT DAH MASUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALHAMDULILLAH!! THANK YOU YA ALLAH!!!!!
OMG2!!!! IM SO HAPPY I COULD CRY!!!
*Will edit later with pictures..*
Friday, April 10, 2009
ohayou~~
i've just woke up..and i feel like writing something..XP
ahhhh sooooooooo sleeeeepy!!!!..want to go back to bed..but can't..can't..can't get used to it..waking up late is not good for you..
i dream bout him again today..T___________T
why??..i don't want to..i don't understand why..and her also in that dream..and i tell you what..the irony is..we are renting in the same apartment!!!well..in the dream laa..scary to think about..but the story's more to..he wants us to get back together..crushing her heart..
hurmmmmmmm..do i want that??..what is the true meaning of that dream???..did i dream it cuz i think bout him so much lately??..arghhhh!!!!..*want to forget*
ok..ok..forget bout him!!!!
lets talk about KAT-TUN!!! \(^_^)/
i'm now listening to SADISTIC LOVE(preview)!!!! dlfhudslifvhsldbljbL SBdslgdbvlibh!!!!!!!!!!!!!*speechless* I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!! seriously what else to say???? simple is big rite??..seriously..it's simple rock!just my cup of tea..i know the song would be AMAZING by just looking at the title..*grin* i'm proud of them..they r leaving the age of lagu2 lembik like i like it,you..etc(not so many)..all their recent songs are amazing!!!..i want to album so badly now!!!
i want to listen to water dance pulak..it must be super amazing as well..*listening*
my gosh!jin's voice!!"i'm dancing in water"~~~~wow sexy song!!!well..i love sadistic love more..but it's interesting as well! i'm not loving the techno voice..as usual~*hate techno*..but i love the melody!(^.^)v..wanna listen??
KaT-TuN
okay..now move on to 1582 and Care..i can't describe just how much i love these 2 songs!(yup the word love pop up again~XD) unexpectedly i love a kame solo!wuhuuuuu!!!the violin and the mystery in the song~i'm super loving it!!! i think it's my fav kame solo,followed by kizuna,then someday for somebody..that's all..the others..well..honestly i don't really like them..gomen kazu-chan!! m(___)m
well as for CARE~ofcourse i love my baby's song..it's more matured voice wise..it is more rockish..which is good^^..i love jinjin singing rock songs! i want my natsu~XD
okay2..nuff said bout them..i love their music more and more!!!..proud of you,KAT-TUN!!!
well..bout my life..today's holiday..good friday..must be a good gal today..LOL!
well what to do??..yeahhh study!!!..tomorrow's jaulah day..yosh berusaha!!!^^
kay..that's all..thank you for reading..*bows*
mata ne!!*waves*
Thursday, April 9, 2009
OOKURANDO SAMUI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's what on my mind rite now..
AUCKLAND is colder~winter is definitely coming~fuyu(winter) wo daikirai!!!..its not that i hate winter that much..but the coldness!!the numbness in my hands while i was trying to write assignment..the layers of cloths that i have to wear..the red nose..ughh..the unpleasent heat from the heater is the worst!!!..please spring come fast~i miss you...
It was raining heavily in Auckland today..it's just FINALLY over 5 mins ago..yokatta!~
HUJAN BATU!!!!! O-M-G-!!!!!
I was hit a thousand times with small tiny ice rocks today on my way to the library..
CHO ITAI!!! it hurts!! well just a little~but still~~~it was soooooooooo cold!!!!and slippery!
Alhamdulillah i brought my umbrella today..for the 1st time this year!! accidentally..so i have some protection from those crazy,tiny rocks!! >_< if not..i don't know what'll happen to me~grrrrrrrr..getting my face hit by ice rocks are NOT cool.. BUT YEAH~~ it was cool anyways~~my 1st experience with hujan batu~hope it's not going to happen again! what..peribahasa melayu says..hujan emas di negara org,hujan batu di negara sendiri..(am i rite?very bad with malay peribahasa) but..it was totally the opposite!! LOL!!!
grrrrr~~~COLDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! lets end this coldness with the awesome hotness..brought to you by none other than~~~~
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Quiz Result!!
just a quick post here..juz now i did a quiz..
this is the result..
7 Minutes in Heaven with KAT-TUN
You picked....Jin Akanishi!!!!
"I picked....number 4." you said as you showed the boys the piece of paper. "Okay, get into the closet and in a few minutes your guy will come in." Koki explained ans he pushes you into the closet. You go in and wait for about 5 mins. 'Hurry up already!' you thought to your self. Then Jin comes in with a smirk on his face as he closes the door. "W-What's so funny?!" you exclaimed nervously. "You just looked so worried. I find that cute." Jin says as he walks closer towards you. You to chat for a bit. "S-So do you like any sports?" you asked him. "Yeah. I like soccer." he says. "Oh, me too!" you say with a smile on your face. A big smile also appeared on his face. "I guess we have a lot in common." he says coming even closer to you. He walks closer and closer until your back hits the bare wall. You start blushing and looks away. "Is something wrong,_____?" Jin asks. You shake your head 'no'. You had nowhere to go, you tried to escape but before you could even move Jin grabbed you by the arm and kissed you passionately. He wanted the kiss to last longer and so did you. So, Jin held you tighter and closer to him, and both of you kiss deeply. It lasted long enough for Koki to open the door and pull Jin right out. "Hey, that was 8 minutes." Koki complained, "What were you guys doing in there?" Both you and Jin didn't answer his question. Both of you blushed. "Ha. Take that Kame! I win the bet." Koki exclaimed. "Wait, what bet are you guys talking about?" Jin asked. "Kame and I made a bet that if you two lasted more than 7 minutes _____ had to go on a date with you." Koki explained with a big smirk on his face. "But, I didn't even know about this!!" Jin exclaimed. "Oh, so you don't wanna go out with me. I thought you wanted to." you said sadly. "I do wanna go out with you." Jin said. And there, the next day you two "lovebirds" are going out on a date. Hope ya liked it!!
just a big,loud n clear..
kyaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
u can do other ones..i got jin 2 times n kame 3 times..yeah..just to past some time after doing a hard assignment..
Monday, March 23, 2009
picspamming
taking breaks~ this week is the worst! next week too..i can feel it..assignments,tutorials prep,tests,presentation~~in addition i have to catch up with my readings which i haven't got time to do..argghhhh!!!!!watever~thank god i'm not doing medic or anything hard like that..feel like spamming this blog with my jinjin.. XD (a chance to look at my dearest many2 times..hehe..)
cute beanie ne~~i love him with caps/beanies *huggles jin*aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~~~~feeling better now!!!*hugging jin tightly* thanks sweety!!!!!
~but missing mummy...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
♥♥♥♥♥♥special for my 6 lovely boys♥♥♥♥♥♥
but this post is juz for a special shout-out to my special ones~
HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST
KAT-TUN!!!
forever stay the same will ya..i pray for your continuous success..i'll be behind you guys supporting every moment,ups and downs..
I PROMISE!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
diera~♥
Saturday, February 28, 2009
JusT some Random StuFF
i'm bored..
its 12.24am..lurking ard lj for some interesting news..but nothing really..and i got no one to talk to now.. X(
this house is in a really terrible mess..those ppl havn't come and take their things yet..i can't kemas my barang yet..sooo depressing.. how can i start class this monday??..the real reason i came back here sooo early(n miss kame-chan's party) is so that i can get ready for this semester..unlike last year which is realllly last min..and its tiring..but now..cuz those ppl..i can't get on my plans..i hate it..
the storm outside is quite strong..the wind is scary..kowaii~~!!it sounds like ghost or sumthing..sumone's bathrobe is hanging outside n its flying like crazy..its scary!!huhu..
listening to the preview of 7 days battle now..i LOVE it!!!well yeah i admit sumtimes(but VERY FEW!),kat-tun's songs r crapy..eg: i like it~or shot ..but honestly i like 7 days battle!since its simple plain rock..i love when kat-tun doing anything rockish..they're really something..every songs r different in their on ways..way to go KAT-TUN!! dats y i love u guys!!!
i love this pic..its so plain simple..but beautiful at the same time..i dunno how to express it in the perfect way cuz im not good in expressing my feelings but i love it...esp the right bottom pic..its just..ldhudliuflsiufhsdlfiudshvilbhsd!!!just read utusan online..ughh!!malaysian politics r gettin worse!soo teruk! calling ppl celaka??thats just plain rude i'd say..i'm speaking as a simple girl without a very strong knowledge on politics..celaka is a very strong insult word for malay..its very unrespectful for that person to say it..especially in public!!..he shud just back off this terrible situation instead of making it worst!..sueing the sultan is one thing..but calling malays celaka is another issue..please people..living with different culture in malaysia is hard enough please don't make it harder..while i'm not being racist or anything..sumtimes i just wish..malaysian wud just make up and live peacefully..no issue like owhh chinese wants everything,the indians want this..the malays being ungrateful..blah3..please..just be grateful n live like our ancestors do..
i'm thankful i'm in New Zealand right now..i don't have to think about the situation in Malaysia..
but Malaysia please..please recover..i'm starting work next year..i don't want any problems getting jobs just bcause malaysia's politics is unstable..fix our economy!
FAST!!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
♥♥♥my A.J ♥♥♥♥
today~~i saw the preview of my jinjin's latest photoshoot!!
it was DAMN PERFECT!!!!!!!!
here it is..
HE SHOULD STRECTH HIS ARM A LIL BIT MORE! and let me have a look at his perfect chest..hehehe..
how in the world can he be sooo gorgeous??!!!..its ALLAH's power..he's wayyyyy too gorge than my previous crushes..
seriously..nick carter,orlando bloom,jerry yan and leonardo D won't stand a chance next to him..i'll go straight to jinjin~~~and hug him tightly!!!*dreamin*
currently i'm totally head over heals with him..i fell in love with him for his voice(yeahh..seriously!!!i dun care if u dont believe me!!^^) demo..his personality (esp his bakaness) n finally gorgeous features had caught my attention..
i'm wonderin what did he gave to kame-chan last 2 days?..hurmmmm..i wish it is sumthing very special..i think kame shopped with jinjin n let him pay for it.^_^
aKame is ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥~~~~
Monday, February 23, 2009
HaPy bDaY KAZU!!!!!
finally i'm back in Auckland for another year of study..
i've missed my life here..
but i'm really sad..cuz i'm not ready yet to be here..
furthermore!..i went back too early before i can celebrate kame's bday!!
ughhh!!! i HATE me for being too silly! i didn't even remember kame's bday when i booked my ticket..so now,i can't go to kame's bday party..
(TTTTTT__TTTTTT)
however,while still jetlagged i made a card for my jinjin's soulmate..^_^
i don't really know what i was doing..really..made it in just an hour..huhu..
sooo kazu-chan, pardon me for the really bad card..just appreciate it okay??..hehe..
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OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU,K.K are too special for words..your attitude,your style,your voice,your seriousness,your hotness,your sexiness,your silliness, your loveliness,your cuteness..your EVERYTHING..
had always made me SMILE..
THANK YOU MY SPECIAL ONE..
HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY..
may god bless you and have a happy,healthy and long life with JIN..
v(^_^)v
Monday, February 16, 2009
WaWa and a TIRING Day
but on the other hand..i got to see wawa!! which i've missed since like forever!!..she's my pretty n intelligent lil sister..the last i've seen her was like a month ago..ohh yeahh..last gong xi fa cai..i miss her sooo much..and today was the last time im gonna meet her this year..well until i've come back again to malaysia that is..she sooo hardworking..when we arrived this morning after a very very early departure from home (i had to wake up earlier then my usual time)..aisyah and i went looking for her in her room but the rest of the student gone!!! yeahh..hysterically (well not really).. we asked around and found out that she was having her mentor mentee class..yeahh bummer..we come early and have to wait for her to finish for like 45 min or less..then there she was..still gorge! but dad just had to pick at her and told her she had gained weight..woooo!!way to go daddy!!hehe..well after that we went to Baling..a really small town,smaller than KK i guess but it was okay..we shopped for her things..then go for lunch..i missed the supposedly sedap ikan bakar cuz my dad didnt remember the way..so we had to eat at a smaller gerai..but the nasi ayam there was delish!!! i'd like to go eat there again..a restaurant with big payung on top of it..i'll remember it..but but..i dont know whether i'm ever gonna go there anymore cuz wawa's finishing high school this year sooo the chance of going back there is really tiny..okey then after lunch,we sent her back to school and go straight home..i slept for most of the journey..we arrived i think just before 5.30pm..yeahh very late..and i dont plan to do anything active since i've had lost my energy for the day..so i just watch tv and gossip girl tonight..
downloading ueda's waratte itomo and hanamaru's interview currently..and hoping to watch it tomorrow..i reallllllllllly want to watch his romeo n juliet play..i bet its gonna b good!..i want to watch ueda acting!uwaaaa hopefully he'll get drama role next..woohooo!!i love anything that KAT-TUN member do..




















